I HATE TODAY! 25Dec'08!!! Two super unfortunate happenings occurred.

First. My mum accidentally washed my new Nudie jeans.. :( well, its supposed to be worn for 6 months before the wash. so that when it is washed, only some parts of the outermost layer is washed off and thus they sort of becomes 'customised' according to your wearing style.. oh well. since she said she didnt wash them with hot water and that she didnt actually scrub clean the jeans, I still have a little hope that they gonna be ok still.

Second. I had my first car accident.. well, not really a major accident. I just accidentally bumped into someone's car. Just a minor damage, actually, just a slight scratch.. The ugly-looking driver took away my driving license and keep on asking for compensation. Poor driver I pity you. money-minded. I was with my mum at first before my dad rushed over. I suggested him to bring his car to a car workshop to have the paint scratch cleaned away and I gonna pay for the fee. But my dad came over and shouting making the whole situation worse, i guess. Well, I think I should have been more fierce. According to my dad it was just a very trivial matter, nothing to be really disputed about. What a miser that driver is.. I particularly hate his eyes, his two cock-eye looking eyes were bulging like tennis balls and staring at me like I have made a damn big mistake. I was damned pissed of course. I just wanna pull that two stupid eye balls out with my fingers... GRRRRR!!!! I wanna eat him inside out and tear him apart alive!!

Hell yea! I admit my mistake. But the fact that he made such a trivial mistake seemed so big surely piss me off like hell.

F**H!!!!
FISH!!!!

Havent been posting for a while.. Wrote this on facebook just now.. kill 2 birds with one stone! haha!

Rules:
1. Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you.
2. At the end, choose 16 people to be tagged.
3. You have to tag the person who tagged you.
4. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you. (or let's just pretend i do,lol)

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16 Random and So "Whatever" Things about Me:

1. I am damn pissed cos I forgot to publish the notes just now so it gotta have to write another one!! damnit! :(

2. I like to watch Korean Dramas... hmmm.. yea! thats the fact. :)

3. I am obsessed with body-building. I used to go to gym 3 times a week last years during second semester.. I wanna make my biceps even bigger! :D:D

4. I love my chinning bar. I bought it and installed with much hard-earned carpentry skills on my room door. So I am doing lots of chin-ups a day.. I guess I do around 100-150 in a day! yeeehaa~! I shall beat gong tuo in chin-ups next year!! :D :D

5. I wanna be a big man someday. I wanna be a millionaire - hopefully in some better currency like GBP or EUR or USD not IDR of course - and a philanthropist - my dream is to install clean water system in Africa . I wanna amass wealth which is enough to afford the expenses of 3 generations under me, and before I die, I will donate half of it for charity like building orphanages.

6. I wanna be a DIALTH.. hahahah!

7. I am pretty much an agnostic. I dont think that religion is god-made, but man-made. So i find no real reason to believe in any religion. My belief is simple, I believe that there is a God, but there is a stronger force behind him which is karma. therefore, God is not omnipotent and omniscient otherwise there wouldnt be SARS outbreak and tsunami. I wont create those two extremely destructive force if i were an omnipotent god.

8. I believe in superstitions. I have my own personal reason and experience to believe in it.

9. I dont believe in prayers and miracles that make the donts come true. well, only people who have 'coincidentally found' their prayer coming true will advocate it. Have you ever heard of people sharing their unfulfilled prayers? NEVER! Can we ever get the fatalities of a certain calamity to testify that their last prayers didnt come true? NEVER! Although i sincerely believe that they did pray before death came to take them away.

10. I wanna be a vegetarian one day. perhaps when i turn 40 plus later.. Meat is getting more and more disgusting day by day.. But its simply not realistic to become a vegan right now.. later.

11. I have blood-phobia. I dont like the view of blood. Its making my whole body trembles with disgust and I cant stand looking or touching inner organs of any mammals.. :(

12. I love blue colour. Especially Navy blue. :)

13. I am an idiot when it comes to love. :( I still regret my decision to break up the last time.. took me one year to fall for another girl.. :(

14. Real gentleman cries and so do i.. hahaha!

15. They say guys with thick eyebrows are emo dudes.. and i think to a certain I am..

16. I am pretty materialistic. I love branded goods! It gives you extra confidence and pride! :D

Phew,,,

Hola!

Just got back home from Karo Highlands. Well, I believe the sleep over was a great success so I wanna take this chance to thank our beloved master of ceremony Aliong :)Guess the photos gonna be up on facebook pretty soon. So tiredddd... Its over midnight though, I am supposed to be sleeping.. But now I got 3 younger cousins to take care of.. Oh well, they keep on making loud noises which prevent me from resting. :(

Oh, they are coming over with my aunties and uncle to commemorate the 49th day of passsing away of my grandmother tomorrow. So yea! we gotta wake up pretty early tomorrow and head to my grandmother's resting place. I miss her so much... My house feels different without her presence. :(

Today, I am happy because someone has called a moon down from the sky for me.. a really cute moon :) :) thanks. It amuses me and makes me laugh whenever I see it. :)

And something made me sad. :( A buddy of mine informed me that his scholarship was terminated. He is having dilemma right now, he doesnt know what exactly to do.. I hope he will figure out the best solutions as soon as possible. :)

Well, I have to decide soon. I dont want to see my heart hurt. I dont want to see my mind shackled.

Cheers!

Dear grandma, I am so proud of you. Now, its my turn to make you proud of me.

Salve!

Uh.. today I feel like talking a little bit about religion.. hmmm. Oh well, I guess I am experiencing crisis of faith. Well, it not actually caused by my current belief, more like by another belief. I think this is a great disadvantage of being too 'curious'. Curiosity leads to you making assumptions and hypothesis. And yea! so it leads to further researches to look for more clues and evidences to support those assumptions.. Oh well, guess I am feeling really bad about this. skepticism. But still, I look upon those religious heroes or rather leaders for their unparalleled compassion and wisdom..

Oh well, went to temple too just now with my dad. And I learnt these few lines which struck me extremely much. It is titled "Mind Garden":
-Two people are waiting for a late bus
One is frustrated,
But the other one is taking it easy.
Thus, the real source of frustration cannot be the bus.

-Is there an evil bus-driver out there to be angry at?
The seeds of anger lies within.
The "late buses of life" are only conditions which ripen our anger.
In the end, it is you who cause your state of mind.

-The causes of un/happiness are within your mind.
Take care of your mind then.
It is a garden-you decide what seeds to plant and nurture..
:) :)

pretty nice huh?

This afternoon I watched Twilight for the second time. Oh well, it just makes me craving to read the book more than ever..

I am playing BSB's "get another boyfriend" again and again.. find it nice to hear. :)
And uh.. a little improvement in my guitar, now I can play the opening of Qing Tian. YAY!! :D but my German is having a little bit of congestion. Grammar. Oh well.

I am also doing like around 80 chin-ups a day.. Wanna make my biceps bigger! HAHAHA anyway, there is another motive too. Looks like my tummy has gotten a LITTLE BIT bigger. Guess, I have been drinking much. haha!

Well, I am happy with a buddy of mind, who has just got back from a trip and apparently had a crush during the trip.. you know who you are!!! haha hot stuff siah!! =D

Arrividerci :D

Phew.. Barely got back from the Karo Highlands... Well, that's the international name of the place; it is more well-known as Berastagi to locals. Spent 1 night there. As its name suggests, it is pretty balmy there, guess its average temperature is ~16'C

Drank pretty much there. With those uncles, we finished a bottle of Chivas Regal while listening to them talking about business, life, food, sports and some dirty stuff. hahaha.. It was quite fun. Listening to them gives me some adult perspective about many matters. Drank 2 cans of Guiness and a couple of glasses of wines too. Then slept like until the afternoon. I was damn tired. Had a potluck at my friend's earlier on Saturday night after watching Twilight. It was a good movie, probably I am watching it again pretty soon with the scholars. :)

I think I had sudden surge of Hormone Ghrelin over the weekend - well, dont bother to google this hormone cos you will definitely be able to infer it pretty soon. So yea! Over the weekend I keep on gorging food incessantly.. I believe I have grown around 1kg in this 1 week in Indo.

I bought and installed a chinning bar! yay! so happy! I am doing chin-ups everyday. It will be one of the means to keep my body in shape here. :)

Ah! I also watched Street Kings starring Keanu Reeves. Love that movie so much!

My fingers are smarting... I am learning how to play guitar! yay!! hahaha. :) Inspired by Depapepe - well you should google this i think, wont be able to infer it. :)

Oh! For J1 Medanese dudes and lasses check this out:
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Why don't you ask him to move mountains and rivers to prove that his love has worth?

Bis Demnachst

Arrgh.. My hamstrings and quads are aching.. Oh well, simple reason: didnt stretch before and after playing soccer yesterday. Pretty fun yesterday. Just that it wasnt a very intensed game. It reminds me of SC4 winning the runner-up position in soccer for AC games.. Not bad siah.. If I recall our games.. :) :)

Had a reunion dinner yesterday.. It was so so fun! Guess the stuff that we talked about has pretty much change over time. Everyone is so much more mature now. And uh.. one food for thought, outing here is very practical, it can be organized anytime and anywhere we want.. cos almost everyone here can drive. And of course there is no curfew to abide by. Planned a pot-luck and stay over on this Saturday. I gonna cook mashed potato. :)

oh! Twilight is out in Indo. Guess it will only out at around 7 or 9 Dec in Singapore.

I am so inspired by this project by AQUA-an extremely well-known brand for mineral water in Indonesia. The project is called 1 litre for 10 litre. It means that for each 1 litre of AQUA that you buy, they will use the profit to provide 10 litre of clean water in some more-desolated villages across Indonesia. When I saw the video, I was marveled and cant help myself admiring their philanthropic attitude! Again, I am inspired. Oh well, now I wanna be 2 kinds of person when I have grown up: a millionaire and a philanthropist. :)

I hope that you will not say that you do not understand why we held hands that night

Cheers!

Howdy!
Back home! Yea!

Well I have just exactly 30 days to spend in Medan. Gotta go back to Singapore on 30th with my family. So I will celebrate New Year's Eve in Singapore, or more exactly Singapore waters. Well, we havent been cruising for quite sometime though, ever since the Tsunami in 2004. Feels great to be back on waters pretty soon. The last time I celebrate new year's eve on cruise was 2003, I guess. It was awesome and so I am looking forward to it. Partly because there will certainly be much more to enjoy after all I am 18 now! Legal age! Yay!!

Didnt do much stuff today. Just had 3 hearty meals today. :) :) and spent most of my afternoon at my mom's office and shopped a bit. Bought 3 nice shorts.

Well went to a bookstore as well just now. But cant really find the books that I want, though it is arguably the most complete bookstore here. And most of the English novels are out-dated too. There are some new novels but they are translated novels - from english to bahasa - which i hold much aversion to read. So uh.. it was a futile trip to the bookstore.

I just finished a book and this phrase from the book keeps ringing in my head, "how far should you go in the name of love?"
Perhaps my answer gonna be, "how much time left do you have? I you have 10 minutes maybe a 2.4 gonna be worth it!"

Everyone wants to be loved. And so am I.

Cheers! =D