This phrase is stuck in my head for so long that I really feel like writing something about this. About how meaningful it was and also about how ambiguous it left me afterward. Okay, it has nothing to do with sexual intimacy or whatsoever. I can guarantee that it will pass Singapore's censorship very easily as PG.

So, let me tell you about this one night stand. out of nowhere, coming from my little thoughts in my head. On that chilly night, you were there. There, just for me. It was the night that everything I have never thought of, came by just for me and I bury myself in those overwhelming emotions; of happiness, curiosity and uncertainty.

But now, you were gone. Gone to somewhere, all the way to the land of white mountains. Probably it is just a one night thing to you. But that means so much to me. Just to know, it is so much much more to me. The propinquity that we, or I, felt was so close. But I am wondering why it feels so far for me now. I am solemnly hoping that there could be another night, or just another try. Just another try and I will not care whatever they would say about me.

Sometimes, I think about how pitiful I am. Thinking of how hard to say those 8 letters 3 words. I will never forget that night. One night with you seems like worth of hundred nights with anyone else. Everything seemed perfect, the air was sweet and loving though filled with uncertainties. I was certain that we were doing fine. It was filled with hope, the hope that you gave. And the hope is still being kept alive to the point that ambiguity comes; that it goes on and off that I feel helpless.

I will never forget this one night thing. Even though when I find myself in someone else's arm, I will never forget this one night thing. Sweet and loving. I do not know how much it means to you, whether it is just a one night thing to you or more than that.

I am drowning in those sweet recollections.

I want to sleep some more so tired after coming back from training :(
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